Whoa, Oya...only good thoughts from me for whatever is going on with you. I don't want to second-guess anything here so I'll just say that I hope you're seeing a doctor. You're a very strong, determined, person and can fight whatever it is.
You're not alone...definitely let us help by sending you strength. We can add to the comfort and strength you get from those wonderful dogs of yours. (and, yes, definitely good thoughts for Cilek's continued health)