I lost Ti-Loup

[girlw2browndogs]

Not sure if anyone remembers me, I was an active member for a long time - life got busy with my two labs and family so I haven't been on for a while.

I am coming back because I know only you guys understand my pain right now.

I will share with you what has been happening. Two weeks ago I was diagnosed with Stage 1 breast cancer; I had received treatment two weeks prior to that for what they thought was pre-cancer. I had surgery yesterday to remove the rest as well as lymph nodes.

Its been just a horrible week. On Tuesday, we came home to find that Ti-Loup had suffered a massive stroke. She couldn't walk, could not stand and was shaking like a leaf. We brought her to the vet and I made the most painful decision of my life - I decided to that, for her benefit I had to say goodbye.

My Husband and Son (8 years) was with me but my son was just overwhelmed and had to leave the room with my husband. I couldn't let her go alone. I sat on the ground with her while they sedated her. I spoke gently to her while she wagged her tail until she fell asleep; as we all know, the wagging tail is such a big character of the lab. She died 5 days short of her 13 birthday.

With everything going on in my life, I am so overcome with grief. I have been crying since Tuesday. I cannot believe that she is gone. She was the best thing that ever happened to me. She was my rock, my sole mate, my shadow. She and I have been through so much together, happy times and sad times.

Ticker who just turned 2 years old is just so sad without her big sister. She keeps looking for her, keeps whining, its heart wrenching.

Last night I woke up to the sound of my son crying in his sleep. It just broke my heart.

I know that only time can heal my pain but it seems right now that the hole in my heart will never mend; she was such a big part of our lives, our family and we are all so lost without her.

I made this video with some pictures of our time together.

Tribute to Ti-Loup - YouTube

[smartrock]

I'm so sorry to read about Ti-Loup and your other struggles. It doesn't matter how long it's been since you were a regular here, we're all old friends. Your last journey with Ti-Loup is one so many of us have gone through and it's just heartbreaking. I can't look at your video right now, too public for a breakdown, but I'll look at it later. Sending you hugs and thoughts of comfort for your loss of Ti-Loup and the best, just the very best wishes for your breast cancer treatment..

[Tanya]

oh I am so sorry, how heart wrenching when you were already in a stressful place I do remember you guys.

Sending out good thoughts and positive vibes to your family thru this dificult time, both is teh loss of a family member and your health struggles.

[katALlabs]

I'm so sorry to hear about Ti-Loup and yes I do remember you all.
Run free Ti-Loup

[ZoeysMommy]

I am so sorry about your baby and your health struggles as well. Sending prayers to you and your family. Run free Ti-Loup

[ARTC]

So sorry for your loss. The video was very nice. Thank you for that.

[Doreen Davis]

I remember you and am so sorry for your loss and additional stresses. We lost all 3 of our guys that you would remember and started the cycle again with Stella and Anthony. May you find peace and recovery.

[Berna]

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I remember you and I remember Ti-Loup and your new pup. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you to kick cancer's butt.

[girlw2browndogs]

Thanks so much everyone. Its nice to see old faces (ok, the pooches). I am glad I have Ticker to help me with this. Since Tuesday she has been so calm. I know she is mourning the loss as well. She's been a real snuggle bug. She's been sleeping by my side all day.

[kimbersmom]

I remember you and Ti-Loup. So very sorry for all of your struggles right now.