Back from the vet

[JenC]

Can you find a vet that will come to your house? I found that was very helpful when Maddy passed. She didn't like the vets and I wanted her to be calm and at ease when the end came. Sorry you are going through this.

[MontananDakota]

The only ones I've seen are $300. I will look further into it I've never had that conversation with them before. ...thanks

[POPTOP]

Keeping Montana and your family in my prayers.

[Tilly]

I'm just seeing this now, and cannot begin to imagine your pain and sadness. Sending you good thoughts and strength. Enjoy those smiles, licks and wags, take care

[Sandra]

So very sorry to hear this sad news. You are in my prayers.

[BogeyBaby]

I'm so sorry. It's been just 8 1/2 months since we put Chico down, but the pain is still there--albeit not as acute. It is devastating.

[classiq]

Prayers being sent for Montana,you, and your family.

[Moby and Barley's Mom]

Heartbreaking. I am so sorry. I know this day will come with my beloved Moby who turned 13 on 9/10. I start crying just thinking of it. My thoughts are with you.

[lovemylabby]

Thanks guys. Just when I thought I couldn't cry anymore tears...for a bit...more came. It's devastating. 10 1/2 years is a long time to love someone who loves you back without fail. Without missing a beat. Ever. The vet was fantastic, sweet & he realized I was in a pickle-as this came about at a time when I had my dd with me & my husband wasn't home yet. He was careful with his words in front of her. My husband came home from work to find only Dakota home alone so he knew something was wrong & headed straight to eh vets office & just as the vet was giving me the last 2 options ( the shot & a few days of meds or put him to sleep) my husband walked in. Sweet Sweet Montana brings a big tough guy to tears.
This morning the swelling has gone down, in fact there is marked improvement. He still has a bit of a tiny twitch going on, but if the swelling goes down more that will too. We can touch his beautiful face without hurting him. He didnt wanna play much but hung close to me while I was home, smiling & wagging. So hes getting strong antibiotics & I think steroids for the inflammation? he said it brings down the inflammation which eases the pain. So he got a pill of that this morning too, tiny little thing in some peanut butter. He got the 1st few licks & then some fell & Dakota got that. I'm PRAYING he got that pill. His next comes when I get home about 4:15.
I know its my responsibility to let him go. I couldn't do it without trying to get him pain free once more since all else is still there-his will to walk & play ( except for this morning) his wanting to eat & give kisses....I now understand what everyone means when they say "you will know when it is time".
I sat with him talking to him & telling him simply that soon he will be running free & that I expect to see his face 1st when i get there.
F-ing sucks. F-ing hurts.

I am in tears after reading your post....isn't this the truth? Your dear, sweet Montana....it is so unfair! I often ask...why does this happen to our beloved pets?

I can't even imagine this...but I know one day...this will come for me too...and I just can't even imagine our home without our Toby in it.

It is unthinkable...

Forgive me...but I am trying to remember Montana's diagnosis...is it a tumor in his nose? And is surgery not an option?

At 10 years old..perhaps he is a candidate for surgery? Forgive me...I must have missed some of Montana's story.

[MontananDakota]

Thanks so much for the prayers everyone. We had a a fantastic walk in the park yesterday. Fantastic. And because I had cried so much the night before I was pretty calm and clear. I felt like a bit of peace and almost like maybe I can do this when I need to. This morning he came and woke me up with kisses, wiggling his whole body and hurried me right out of bed to feed him. On and off thru today he gets quiet and I start to feel that dread again.. but then something happens to perk him up ...it's a rollercoaster. And now I can't see how I can do this...I know I will because ill do anything for him but....

He has a sinus tumor and treatment has been out of the question because I refused to do radiation when it maybe buys a bit of time but takes away his quality of life. It's incurable. Surgery is not an option because at the time of diagnosis it already infiltrated the bones of his forehead. What we are doing now is basically palliative....drugs to hold the inflammation back from his brain. When it puts pressure on his brain it cause s great pain and neurological effects which are heartbreaking. This medicine though , as it is working now for the moment is keeping him pain free. And all else is still there. Left unchecked this pressure would take him painfully. So I have to watch closely for the first r st sign of this medicines failure and then say goodbye.
And i don't know how I will ever get over this. I do know that even with Dakota ...life minus this one dog will change. I am blessed. I feel he w as put in my life to do a job and he's done it well.
Thanks for being a place where I can say these things and people understand. Thanks for the support. It means a lot.