You were in my dreams last night...

[Secret]

my sweet girl, my Kerri dog and now I can't stop thinking about you, and I miss you so much. It was so normal in my dream, you were there just like you were before you got sick, running and playing and everything was normal, but you were there right beside our new girl, Molly. You guys got along great. It was a great dream.

Then I woke up and remembered that you're gone and I couldn't stop crying. I keep crying, it's been a while since it's hit me this hard. I think it was my brain reminding me that it will be three months tomorrow that we've been apart. You left a very large hole in my heart and I don't think it will ever close because I promise never to forget you. I love my new pup, Molly, but don't worry, it's not the same, she's not you, she's her own unique personality. I think you would have loved her. I'd love to see you boss her around a little and Molly to bring out your playful side. She's taken a different spot in my heart. The place in my heart owned by you, my Kerri dog, is yours forever.

I just I can't help it, I think back and I wish I could have done more for you. I look back and I will probably always wonder if I should have fought harder after your diagnosis. Once we knew what was wrong and put together the pieces of how very much pain you had been in all of that time, when we knew something was wrong, but we didn't know how to help, we knew we had to help you the best way we could. I'm so sorry it took us so long to figure it out. I never wanted to say goodbye. I always promised I wouldn't leave you. I remember, the day we decided we had to let you go, it just seemed like you were relieved that we finally knew, that you knew you could just rest and we'd be there with you. We decided to let you go because we thought it was the best thing for you. I hope you know how much we love you. I hope you don't think we gave up on you. I miss you every day.

It's really kind of bittersweet at times, having Molly. Most of the time, I can keep my thoughts of you separate, still miss you, and give her all sorts of love and cuddles. But, there are times when I walk with or play with her in your favorite spots and I can see you there too, so vividly, and it hurts. I hope the neighbors don't think I'm the crazy crying lady out walking her dog.

I think we did the right thing. We tried to do what was best for you, even though it broke our hearts. We only had you for a year, but I know we gave you a fantastic home and I know you loved us, too. I just wish we could have had you in our family for such a long, long time. It just doesn't seem fair. We tried to protect you from everything, but couldn't protect you from cancer. I am so sorry you had to deal with so much pain at the end. I hope having us love you helped to make it more bearable.

In my mind you are whole and happy and running free, chasing squirrels and birds and playing with other dogs. I hope you don't mind that I still talk to you from time to time. I will always, always miss you. Hope to see you in my dreams again soon, Kerri dog. *smooches and ear rubs*

[javadoo]

Oh God, I'm crying.....the love you had for that dog. I KNOW she felt it ever day of her life that she was with you. How could she not.
What a sweet, beautiful letter to your girl.....
God bless..

[PopTop]

Bawling here. A beautiful letter. Please know she knew you were doing everything you could. You gave her the greatst gift, freedom from disease and pain. We are the ones who must endure the grief of their loss.
I truly believe we are the lucky ones when our sweet babies visit us. Like you, a few months after Potion passed, without a doubt, I know she came to me during the night. I watched her play, pain free, and her beautiful smile. I felt her soft fur, the velvet of her muzzle against my cheek. Not only did I see her, I felt her. Their bond with us never breaks, their love for us never ceases.
So very sorry for the sorrow you are feeling.

[ZoeFaye]

Your post made me tear up a little, i know how it feels to lose a pet. Even months later is still feels like they were only here yesterday.

i found this poem from when my Oreo passed away, hopefully it can make you feel better

I was chosen today
I'm learning to fly
The world took me away,
But please don't you cry
And I chose you today
To try and be strong
So please don't you cry
And don't say that I'm gone
When you're feeling alone
Just remember our love,
I'm up near the stars
Looking down from above.
Remember our love
In a moment you'll see
That I'm still here beside you
When you're thinking of me.

[ClutchDisk]

I feel for you because I am going through the same thing. I lost Scooter 0430hrs Tuesday this week. Never knew he had some type of intestinal cancer. You have put the words the way I exactly feel. It hurts. I can't believe that I'm reading your post and looking at the pictures, your feelings are exactly like mine.You look and you see them, but they are not there.You wait for those special moments in antisipation, than the tears come.I feel for you greatly.I am so, so, sorry for your loss. I don't know what to say.